I like predictability. I am a planner and a list-maker. I am not a huge fan of change. Funny how life doesn’t really follow these ideals. And while the Lord is 100% solid and dependable, walking in faith does not follow a predictable plan either.
I have had to restate my prayer of “Yes, Lord, I will follow you anywhere your lead” many times. I stopped reading Jennie Allen’s book, Anything, because the thought of saying “anything” to the Lord scared me.
I am a toes in the pool, wade in slowly type of girl. Except for this summer. This summer when I took the kids to the pool, often I would jump in the deep end right behind them. Now I don’t know if this was some sort of subconscious declaration to become more daring, or if I was just hot and didn’t want to wade through the crowd of kids at the steps, but I am going to go with the first reason. I want to become more daring.
Slowly, I am edging out of my shell. I am trying to become more open. I keep trying to talk myself out of writing/blogging: I don’t have time, Now is not the right time, I am not any good, No one cares what I say, People I know will read this . . . the list goes on and on.
However, I feel clearly called to keep writing and use my writing as a ministry. I know how it means so much to me when I hear another woman say, “Me too.” To know that I am not alone and/or crazy for feeling overwhelmed, nervous, let down, and tired, makes a huge difference. Ladies, we need to be there for each other. We can make a huge difference in people’s lives.
I have been a teacher for eight years now. It is my second career and one I really love. I keep moving up in the age group I teach. First it was elementary school. After a few years, I found myself teaching middle school, something I said I would never do, and I love it! This school year I will be teaching 7th, 8th, and 9th grade. I jumped in and taught an age I never wanted to and it has me considering teaching even older students.
In addition to sharing my writing, I have felt nudged to lead a Bible study. A ladies Bible study. That’s right, adults. Many teachers will tell you, being in front of a class of kids, teaching all day long is no problem, but put us in front of adults –no thank you. I am one of those teachers. Speaking in front of my peers is not high on my list of things to do. Right about the time I felt nudged, an opportunity came to lead the Come With Me Bible study online. (Thank you, Lord, for baby steps.)
Part of what holds me back in pursuing any of these callings is insecurity. How can I lead a Bible study? I am not an expert on the Bible! I don’t know all the answers! Same with writing. I don’t have all the answers, but I can share what I have experienced. I have come to realize that it is okay not to have all the answers in any avenue of life. As much as we would like to, we will never have all the answers. While it may frustrate us sometimes, it is a good thing! It will lead us to dig deeper in His Word and allows us to venture out in faith. So every day I am going to try to keep stepping out in faith and following where He leads.
Will you join me?
I would love to know how you are stepping out in faith and following where He leads. Leave a comment below and let’s all encourage one another!
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